When the Negative Pregnancy Test Knocks You Down

When trying (and trying and trying) to grow your family a negative pregnancy test can knock you down, am I right? And sometimes when you get knocked down it’s tempting to not get back up. However not in the sense of going through life, but rather in terms of hoping, praying and believing again; especially…

As It Turns Out, I Don’t Trust God.

My phone dinged late one evening and I looked down to see a text from a friend. “So how are you doing?” she asked. I wanted to put on a smile and type back that I was fine, but in that exact moment, I was anything but fine. It had only been a couple of…

What Your Heart Needs to Hear When You Are Afraid

  “Okay sugars, get settled down and crawl underneath the covers. It’s time to go to sleep.” Immediately the giggling stopped and her body language changed as she looked up at me and said, “But its dark outside. I don’t like the dark.”  Hearing the worry and fear in her voice, I pulled the covers…

My First Smile

It has been over a year since I quit spending wasting my money on Ovulation Prediction Kits. I didn’t see the point since I never saw a smiley face, a blinky face, or any other type of face besides my own pouty face after each test.  However, four weeks ago while shopping in Target and…

Today is Different

I know what today is…it’s Josiah Day.  But this morning I have traded in my party hat, noise maker, and baby back ribs in order to sit next to my Mamma’s hospital bedside so that I can stroke her hand, remind her of all the good times we have had together, and tell her how…