As It Turns Out, I Don’t Trust God.

My phone dinged late one evening and I looked down to see a text from a friend. “So how are you doing?” she asked. I wanted to put on a smile and type back that I was fine, but in that exact moment, I was anything but fine. It had only been a couple of…

The Only One with Infertility

Sometimes you feel like you are the only one. The only one who has this longing. This heartache. This void. This struggle. This inability. This sometimes anger. You walk through the aisles of the grocery store, look around in church, or simply sit down in a restaurant for dinner and it seems obvious, right? Everyone…

What Do You Do When All Looks Hopeless?

Recently one early morning I was flipping through my bible and I stumbled upon one of my favorite stories. It’s the one where a rulers daughter is raised from the dead. You might have heard of it…or perhaps not. But it goes like this… While He was saying this, a ruler came and knelt before…

Infertility: It Is What It Is

“It is what it is.”  That is all I could say as a lump formed in my throat and the tears filled up my eyes. It was in response to her, “I’m sorry” after telling my story and sharing with her my struggle to conceive. She was so compassionate to my losses. So sympathetic to…

What a Beautiful Mess

Ugh! No matter how much I wish it would, or try to stop it, or attempt to keep it neat and tidy, the Play-Doh always gets mixed together into a giant ball of…well, whatever it is…and it causes this type A, everything has its place kinda gal, frustrated. So today as I sat across from…