When You Are Still Pregnant Six Years Later

May 17th, 2012. That was the day a nurse confirmed I was pregnant. And it was also the day I announced to my husband that he was going to be a daddy. I remember giggling over dinner as we discussed due dates, names, and nursery ideas… It seems like it’s been forever since that day…

What Are You Waiting For?

I was feeling a little like Betty Crocker one day and decided to bake cookies. But as I read the instructions on the back of the box (yes, they were box cookies…don’t judge), I realized the recipe called for one stick of “soft” butter. Not melted. And definitely not cold which is what mine was.…

If Not For Me, Do It For Him

“If not for me, do it for him.” That’s all I could cry out in my desperation as I could barely catch my breath while pressing my forehead to the wall of our shower one late summer evening after hearing the news of a friend’s pregnancy. Infertility is so hard and after nearly six years…

How to Pray When God Seems Silent

I call my friend on the phone. “You’ll never believe what happened to me today,” I moan. “Oh no!” she says, in her most sympathetic voice. “Tell me everything.” I launch into the story, holding back no detail because I know this friend will appreciate all the nuances, including the messy parts where I wasn’t…