Josiah Day, Waiting for Baby Bird

God Made Me a Promise. But Perhaps I Got It Wrong.

Today, on Josiah Day, I sat outside his room. Am I pregnant? No. Am I pregnant with hope? Some days I am. Some days it’s a struggle. Today, it's a struggle. (Whew. Deep breath.) It’s been over 8 years since I heard in my spirit that I would have a son and to name him… Continue reading God Made Me a Promise. But Perhaps I Got It Wrong.

Testimonies, Waiting for Baby Bird

“No Heartbeat”: A Story of Loss from a Husband’s Perspective

“No Heartbeat" I can remember the giddy smiles on our faces as we were preparing for our ultrasound appointment. “What are we going to name it if baby Lawler is a girl? How are we going to decorate the room? I think it is a girl from the way I have been feeling, but the… Continue reading “No Heartbeat”: A Story of Loss from a Husband’s Perspective

Josiah Day, Waiting for Baby Bird

She Wants to Be a Big Sister–So She Prays

You would think after five years of nightly dinner time prayers and bedtime pleadings for a sibling that she would stop making her requests. I know there are days I can’t even mutter the words—at least not with the same fiery faith that her prayers contain. However, despite the years that have gone by with… Continue reading She Wants to Be a Big Sister–So She Prays

Love and Marriage

Cheap Dress, Cheap Rings, and the Mispronunciation of My Name

While living in Florida during my younger and much cuter years, I met my future husband in the fifth grade and immediately thought he was dorky. He waved his hands to classical music after lunch, wore turtlenecks almost every day, and kept his hair swooped to the side. However, by the sixth grade, cupid hit… Continue reading Cheap Dress, Cheap Rings, and the Mispronunciation of My Name