I turn the big 3-6 today (a baby to some...old to others) And I can't believe it. Never in my plans as a high school student, college student, or career woman in my middle 20's did I imagine life would look like it does now. Is my life bad? No. But does it look anything… Continue reading 36 Years Old and Still Barren
I was feeling a little like Betty Crocker one day and decided to bake cookies. But as I read the instructions on the back of the box (yes, they were box cookies…don’t judge), I realized the recipe called for one stick of “soft” butter. Not melted. And definitely not cold which is what mine was.… Continue reading What Are You Waiting For?
Ugh! It's an ugly thought, isn't it? The thought that you might not end this year with a baby growing in your arms, or at the very least in your womb, but still in your heart. And it's not a thought you even want to entertain, am I right? Because if you are anything like… Continue reading What If It’s Not Your Year for a Baby?
My phone dinged late one evening and I looked down to see a text from a friend. "So how are you doing?" she asked. I wanted to put on a smile and type back that I was fine, but in that exact moment, I was anything but fine. It had only been a couple of… Continue reading As It Turns Out, I Don’t Trust God.
Our foster princess sat in her bed last night and after we went through our nightly ritual of bible reading and song singing, it was time to say our prayers. Without hesitation she asked God, like she has done every night for nearly 26 months, if she could stay with us forever. I would be… Continue reading Imagining Life Without Our Foster Princess