As It Turns Out, I Don’t Trust God.

My phone dinged late one evening and I looked down to see a text from a friend. “So how are you doing?” she asked. I wanted to put on a smile and type back that I was fine, but in that exact moment, I was anything but fine. It had only been a couple of…

Imagining Life Without Our Foster Princess

Our foster princess sat in her bed last night and after we went through our nightly ritual of bible reading and song singing, it was time to say our prayers.  Without hesitation she asked God, like she has done every night for nearly 26 months, if she could stay with us forever.  I would be…

Just Write It from the Heart

Two hours. That is how long I have been typing. And then deleting. Typing. And then deleting. Typing. Annnd then…?  Yep!  You guessed it.  Deleting.  Why can’t I seem to find the words? It’s never this hard. But as I sit here, deleting the original post I had planned and started to write. And now…

For the Days You Just Can’t Do It Anymore

There I stood (barely) in the kitchen with my elbows deep in soapy water, when the dam that I had constructed so carefully finally broke.  And the tears I had been holding back for days?  maybe weeks?  Began pouring out of me.  And as each tear landed in the water, I felt myself shamefully falling…

What Your Heart Needs to Hear When You Are Afraid

  “Okay sugars, get settled down and crawl underneath the covers. It’s time to go to sleep.” Immediately the giggling stopped and her body language changed as she looked up at me and said, “But its dark outside. I don’t like the dark.”  Hearing the worry and fear in her voice, I pulled the covers…