My Story on the Joy+Infertility Podcast

You have read my words and now is your opportunity to hear my voice! Joy + Infertility recently interviewed me for my first ever podcast and it is now available for your listening pleasure! I talk all the things…infertility, leading a support group, PCOS, finding hope, losing hope, refusing to have hope, and our surprise…

When You Feel Like Giving Up

I am sitting on the bed in a tangle of sheets, a puddle of tears, telling my husband, “I can’t. I can’t do this. I can’t be away from family and friends and starting a new church in a strange city and so stressed about money and sad about our miscarriage all the time. I…

When the Negative Pregnancy Test Knocks You Down

When trying (and trying and trying) to grow your family a negative pregnancy test can knock you down, am I right? And sometimes when you get knocked down it’s tempting to not get back up. However not in the sense of going through life, but rather in terms of hoping, praying and believing again; especially…

When You Are Still Pregnant Six Years Later

May 17th, 2012. That was the day a nurse confirmed I was pregnant. And it was also the day I announced to my husband that he was going to be a daddy. I remember giggling over dinner as we discussed due dates, names, and nursery ideas… It seems like it’s been forever since that day…

What Are You Waiting For?

I was feeling a little like Betty Crocker one day and decided to bake cookies. But as I read the instructions on the back of the box (yes, they were box cookies…don’t judge), I realized the recipe called for one stick of “soft” butter. Not melted. And definitely not cold which is what mine was.…

If Not For Me, Do It For Him

“If not for me, do it for him.” That’s all I could cry out in my desperation as I could barely catch my breath while pressing my forehead to the wall of our shower one late summer evening after hearing the news of a friend’s pregnancy. Infertility is so hard and after nearly six years…