Waiting for Baby Bird

Grieving the Life You Planned

Vulnerable Post Alert:  Grief hits you at weird moments, doesn't it? For me, it happened this morning as I stood facing my bathroom mirror. I was mindlessly putting on my makeup and getting ready for the day when the thoughts of what I imagined my life would look like recklessly hit me like a Mack… Continue reading Grieving the Life You Planned

Waiting for Baby Bird, When Someone You Know Is Infertile

Why I Choose To Sit on Mother’s Day

I took a quick glance down my row to painstakingly become aware that I would be the only woman of child bearing age not standing. Another quick glance behind me, as well as in front of me, I determined the same. With my head held down and my fingers white knuckled and intertwined, I braced… Continue reading Why I Choose To Sit on Mother’s Day

Waiting for Baby Bird

Infertility is Dealing with the Five Stages of Grief Every Single Month

Infertility is nothing short of a crazy emotional roller coaster ride that takes you on its hopeful highs to the fear gripping lowest of lows every four weeks. Because it is letting your hope soar for a few days or weeks, anticipating that surely this time, you will become parents. But to only have your hopes plummet… Continue reading Infertility is Dealing with the Five Stages of Grief Every Single Month

Waiting for Baby Bird

I Was Afraid You Wouldn’t Understand {Grieving Lost Embryos}

“So, how many children do you have?”  Immediately I looked down as a lump began to form in my throat and tears slowly filled my eyes. I debated on whether I should give you the answer on my heart or the one I had rehearsed. But when I wiped away a tear that had sneaked… Continue reading I Was Afraid You Wouldn’t Understand {Grieving Lost Embryos}