Diary of an Infertile: A Love Letter from God

weeping girl in the rainI see her. She has been hurting after multiple miscarriages and negative doctor reports. She is physically, emotionally, and spiritually in pain. She has lost hope as she slowly feels herself sink beneath her anguish and the waves of despair crash over her, pulling her under. Her faith is weakening and she is struggling to see the goodness of the Lord. She searches to hear His voice, but feels forsaken. She longs for His touch, but feels nothing. 

My heart has been heavy for her and while praying today, the Lord began to speak to me on her behalf; but as I heard Him, I began to run it through my own filter and question what I was hearing. However, I then heard him say, “Just write,” and once I put my pen to paper and ignored my own thoughts, I could barely keep up. The words were so beautiful and His compassion for the broken evident.Then out of nowhere, in my messy handwriting and panic to not miss a single word, my pen just stopped and it was over. He was done.

My beautiful daughter, you search day after day for a sign from me and you long to hear from me, yet here I am. I am right here in the Bible you have allowed to sit idly on your table. Within each page you will find My word that comes alive and my voice that speaks to you. Please don’t neglect it. Please don’t run away from it because it is truth.  It has the power to change the course of your life.  It is medicine and life to all those who find it and believe in it (Proverbs 4:20-22). Just like medicine on earth can take time to heal, so can My word. Sometimes doctors will “up” the dosage to bring healing, I am asking you to “up” your dosage of Me and My word.

Do not let the floodwater’s engulf me or the depths swallow me up or the pit close its mouth over me. Answer me, O Lord; in your great mercy turn to me. Do not hide your face from your servant; answer me quickly, for I am in trouble. Come near and rescue me…”  ~Psalm 69: 15-18

Rise early each morning and meet quietly with Me. Trust in Me as you pour out your heart, for I am your safe dwelling place (Psalm 62:8). Bring me all of your hurts, worries, fears and hesitations. I wait desperately for you to tell them all to me. I already know about them, but I need to hear them from you. Don’t be scared or ashamed because there is nothing you can do or say that will make me turn my face or love you any less.Therefore, don’t hold back! Bring Me everything because I can’t heal your broken heart and we can’t break down the wall you have built until you do.

Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck. I sink in the miry depths, where there is no foothold. I have come into the deep waters; the floods engulf me. I am worn out calling for help; my throat is parched. My eyes fail looking for my God. ~Psalm 69:1-3

You often cry out, “Don’t you see me suffering?!” And the answer is yes. I see the waters coming up to your neck, but know that I won’t let them engulf you. I have seen your troubles and though I have allowed them, know that I will restore your life again (Romans 8:28). From the depths of the earth, I will bring you up. I promise. You have my promise.

Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.  ~Psalm 71:20


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36 thoughts on “Diary of an Infertile: A Love Letter from God

  1. I hope you know how much the Lord uses you, especially in my life. Over dinner last night I read our messaged to my hubs and just fought the tears and knot in my throat. God has given you a divine gift and I am so proud that you walk in it and use it for our good and His Glory.

    I waited patiently for the Lord;
    he turned to me and heard my cry.
    He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
    out of the mud and mire;
    he set my feet on a rock
    and gave me a firm place to stand.
    He put a new song in my mouth,
    a hymn of praise to our God.
    Many will see and fear the Lord
    and put their trust in him

    He sees me, and that’s enough. He knows me, and that’s enough. “I know, Lord, that you love me… and I know that ‘this’ is coming….”

    LOVE YOU!!!!

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    • I LOVE YOU SUGARS!!! One day you will look back and see how far God has brought you and because of your journey, you will be able to step into a new level of ministry as you offer that same hope and encouragement you received to others who need it. xoxo

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  2. Beautiful, just beautiful! What a gift your writing is too so many. So glad you obeyed His prompting and shared this with us!! Thanks for these words – you really should write a book! Thinking about your friend! xoxo

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  3. So grateful to God for your obedience. The unity in the body of Christ is essential to keeping it’s believers going. We have to continue to lift each other up. Thank you for sharing this and I am praying for our friend.

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  4. I think I’m going to start calling you Prophetess Elisha. 😉 Seriously though, the Holy Spirit is continually using you to speak into the lives of so many women. I know your act of obedience by writing this down will touch not only your friend, but many other women who read this. xx

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    • Thanks sugars! I feel so vulnerable when I share what I hear, but I know that God will bless those when I am in obedience. Ultimately me looking foolish is worth it if it helps them.

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  5. You are always helping people! Like for example: helping me with my future potential wee problems (as in wee in my face) with my boy :),oh how I giggled. THANK YOU, loving thoughtful lady. You made my day. Your heartfelt note was so special to me. I just love ya. I can’t wait til the day when I can return the gift-giving. Your friend, the unexpected trip lady xxoo

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    • Yay, I am so glad you got it 🙂 I’m so thankful to have “met” you in this blogging community and I can’t wait to hopefully watch as your precious baby boy grows into a handsome young man! Sending you hugs! 🙂 xo

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  6. Beautiful post. Saying a prayer now for your friend. Hope that she finds that strength to look to Him and trust in His plan even though it may not be exactly what she wants right now.

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  7. I always need a box of tissue when I read your posts! I’m either crying so much because I can relate or I’m laughing to the point of tears with your relatable humor – thanks for making me always need a tissue. Tonight touched home base- please share with your friend she is in my prayer and that by you sharing “her message” was truly heart felt at this end ❤️

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