1,273 Days in Foster Care and Now This…

Day 1: The doorbell rang and when I opened it, there you were, a beautiful three-year-old little princess who was barely 34 inches tall. You had a small white stuffed animal kitty tucked underneath your left arm, a thumb stuck tight in your mouth, and on top of your head was a pigtail that looked like a palm tree. Your smile warmed my heart as I said hello and showed you the room you would be sleeping in for the next 30 days. Little did anyone know that the 30 days would turn into 90 days and 90 days would soon turn into 180 days and 180 days would somehow turn into 1,273.

So much has happened between day 1 and day 1,273. So many fun memories that include three birthday parties, two vacations, and your first day of school,. I will never forget the time your toes first touched the beach and the waves nearly knocked you down. Or how your eyes lit up at your 4th birthday party when you realized all the presents were just for you.

But as you know and I know, during the 1,273 days there have also been a lot of tears, uncertainties and heartache.

There have been court hearings. Counseling sessions. And more court hearings. Nights when I would tuck you into bed and you would look up at me with your innocent big brown eyes and ask with a shaky voice if you could stay with us forever. It broke my heart to not be able to confidently give you the secure answer you needed. Or deserved.

I also remember the time you came home from Kindergarten and quizzed me as to why your last name was different…and when it could be the same. I stuttered and stared as I stumbled over my words. I didn’t know how to answer you, because honestly, I didn’t know when or if it would ever be. Nothing was in my control and everything seemed out of control.

But sweet baby girl, the question you have been asking, the one in which you want to know if you can live with us forever, has finally been answered. And the last name you have been begging to write at the top of your school papers can now be written. Yes, you can live with us forever. And yes, you can now tell the world your last name is Kearns.

As of July 7th, 2017, day 1,274, we are officially “Kearns—Party of 3”.

Here are a few pictures from our special day…

(My parents, whom she adores, also shared this special day with us)


I want to note that while this calls for a celebration, it’s also a difficult and bittersweet time for me and my husband. Because truth be told, we can’t help but think about all the heartache and loss and pain this little girl, as well as her family, went through in order to have this day written on our calendar. It didn’t come without a price. A price I wish no child, parent, grandparent, aunt, uncle or sibling would ever have to pay.


For more of my “Tales of Fostering”, click on the links below:

Imagining Life Without Our Foster Princess

An Open Letter to My Foster Princess

 Why I Pray Our Foster Daughter Returns Home

Foster Parenting: How It Changed My Struggle with Infertility

Just Write It From the Heart

Waiting in the Courthouse

Foster Parenting is Not Always Tea Parties and Coloring

She’s My Little Piece of Jesus

So Do You Get to Keep Her?

The Unknown

Does She Stay or Go Home

She’s Not Mine

The Night She Tore Down My Wall


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59 thoughts on “1,273 Days in Foster Care and Now This…

  1. Yessss!!!!! OMG! I am so happy for you! For HER! For your FAMILY!!! Tears are streaming down my face! I can’t imagine how hard the whole process must have been for all of you, especially the uncertainty. But today it is real! The new chapter can begin together!

    OMG! I cannot express how happy I am to read this.

    Congrats Kearns family!!!!

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  2. So glad for you and for your little one! I know the price is high but it’ll seem smaller with all the wonderful experience and all the love she’ll have with you in the coming years and decades. Enjoy this special moment. Lots of love!!

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  3. Holy crap I’m so happy for you all! I’ve read your blog for a long time but never commented but I just had to say how happy I am for you and her and the rest of your family. As soon as I saw her face I knew it was going to be wonderful news! Praise God!

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  4. I am crying reading this post. I am so so so happy for you! Having gone through this process, it hits close to home and I love reading about the happy endings. I still remember our happy day like it was yesterday. Just over years ago. Congratulations mama!!

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  5. Love, love this! Although like you said it is bittersweet because there is loss too. We will celebrate the gain she and you have through this. ❤️

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  6. Reading this left me breathless and with eyes full of tears. So happy for the three of you! So much heartache in the past, but now she gets to find healing with you. Congrats!!!

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  7. I have tears for you and your sweet family. I am beyond happy for you and your sweet girl. What a blessing all around. I can’t imagine the struggles to get here but she is blessed infinitely to have you. Congrats!!!!!!

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  8. Still so incredibly happy for you!!! I know I read about this already on Facebook, but this post made me cry. I know there’s a bittersweet undertone to it all, but I’m so excited for you all!!

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  9. You know in the bible the number 7 is often represented as a way of showing that something has been divinely completed? So what a beautiful day to have your girl become yours forever 7.7.17

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  10. Rejoicing with you today as you hold your sweet girl in your arms and call her yours! Even though you officially became her mom today, I believe you have been her mama since the first day God placed her in your care. I truly believe this is only the beginning of the blessings you will be receiving for your steadfast trust in our God! Your story is an inspiration to me and fills me with hope to keep pressing on through my journey of infertility. You’re a blessing!

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  11. Ok I am crying right now…I am so happy to read that she is with you forever 🙂 She has the best mom and dad for the rest of her life. Congratulations!!!

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  12. The BEST thing I’ve heard all day! The first part of your post I was sad, thinking that for sure this would be a bad-news ending. Then, like in a Hallmark movie, I got to the good news paragraph and felt a chill and wave of emotion. SO THRILLED FOR YOU GUYS!! God is good!

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  13. I am so happy you finally got to adopt your precious little girl and I’m so happy to now be able to see pictures. Happy gotcha day.

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  14. God is great. His ways are past finding out. I am so happy that you have allowed God’s will, inspite of unpleasant circumstances, to prevail in your life. He will sustain you and your family for that great family reunion in Heaven one of these days. Be blessed.

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  16. I’ve followed you for awhile now and I’ve checked back frequently since your post (a year ago?) about going to court to see how things turned out. I’m so happy for your family, congratulations just isn’t enough. Best wishes to you all

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