There I was, sitting across from her at dinner, and I couldn’t help but take notice that where she is in life is where I want to be. We were both married at the same time. We both began trying to have children at the same time. Yet there I sat, feeling left behind as I watched her juggle two precious kiddos on her lap. At that moment, I felt as though my life had been pulled backward and somehow got stuck.
Stuck sitting in this same stage of life.
But friend, as much as I hate feeling like I have been pulled backward and stuck, I still have hope. Because just like a bow has to be pulled back to reach its target, sometimes we have to be pulled backward to reach ours. I know it doesn’t make sense. But God doesn’t do things in the order and manner that makes the most sense, does He? Because in the chaos of “Joseph’s life,” the boy with the colorful coat found in Genesis, God gave him a dream when he was a little boy. A dream that was big! A dream that suggested he would be in a position of power. But after that dream, Joseph’s life was anything but roses and rainbows. Because it wasn’t too long afterward the jaw-dropping dream, I count ten jealous brothers. And at least two betrayals. I add up many others who hated him. I read about two abductions. And then there is the false accusation that he seduced another man’s wife. I also take note of abuse. Unjust imprisonment. Twenty-four months of prison food. I feel the heartache with every painstaking event he had to endure, and I can’t help but wonder where God is in all of this. What about the vision? What about the dream He placed in Joseph’s heart? I can only imagine how Joseph must have felt during all of those years. He, too, must have been thinking back to that dream when he was younger and wondering if it was just that…a dream. A desire that would go unfilled.
But friends, if you keep reading, you don’t find a story that ends in defeat. Instead, you get a story of hope and redemption. Because despite the heartache, the setbacks, the moments of fear, hurt, doubt and frustration, Joseph lived out the dream God gave Him, and he became the second most powerful man in the world’s most powerful country. I can’t help but think about how the path to the palace wasn’t easy for Joseph. It wasn’t quick like he had hoped. And it was far from painless, both psychically and emotionally. But wouldn’t you say God took his mess and made it into something good? And wouldn’t you think He can do the same with your story? And with your mess? I want you to tally up the pain of your past. And then consider this question: Is the God who was with Joseph still in control? And can He do for you what He did for Joseph? Can He fulfill the dreams, desires, and visions He has birthed in the soft fertile soil of your heart?
The answer is Yes! Yes! And yes!
So friend, if you feel as though you have been pulled backward and have stopped in life, so to speak. Or maybe you have that overwhelming thought that everything is headed in the wrong direction; I want you to hold on still to hope. Trust that God is getting you into the perfect position to launch you into something great. Continue to have faith that today is not where you might be tomorrow, or next month, or a year from now. Because those dreams and visions He placed in your heart back when you were a little girl and pretending to be a mommy while playing with baby dolls? He still has plans to fulfill. So get ready! Don’t be discouraged! Because while it might not “look” like it, I believe that you (and I) are getting ready to fly! And honestly? I hope and pray every day that you get to fly first!
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