A few things you should know about me: I love the details. I’m the one who likes to get in the trenches, make a plan, organize, and ensure everything is just right. I’ve always felt comfortable in control—especially when something needs fixing. It feels good to have a plan, know what’s next, and ensure things happen as they should. But here’s the catch: When the need for control leaves me drained, stressed, and snapping at others, it’s a clear sign that something isn’t working as I thought it would.
(Insert long sigh…)
As overwhelming as the stress is, letting go feels even more overwhelming. The thought of stepping back from it all—relinquishing control—scares me more than the chaos. Have you ever been there? Are you there right now? If so, I want to share something deeply personal with you.
I’ll never forget the day God asked me to let go of my tight grip on my infertility struggle. It felt like I was being strapped into the front seat of a rollercoaster, staring down a steep drop. My stomach dropped into my shoes; my mind raced with fear, doubt, and worry. I wasn’t ready. What if letting go meant losing my dream forever? What if my wait for motherhood got even longer because I wasn’t “doing” enough?
I trusted God in many areas of my life—my health, family, finances—but could I trust Him with my dream of becoming a mother?
I knew, deep down, that I needed to.
So, with a heart full of fear and a shaky soul, I let go.
I wish I could tell you that once I surrendered, everything miraculously fell into place, that my story instantly transformed into a fairy tale. But it doesn’t always work that way.
You’ve probably heard stories like that—of someone who surrenders, and suddenly, their dream comes true. Maybe you’ve even heard about someone who struggled for years with infertility, but once they let go, they conceived.
But the truth is this: while my story doesn’t have a neat ending yet, surrendering has been the most freeing decision I’ve made in this struggle. Yes, the rollercoaster is still wild, and I still don’t know how or when my dream of motherhood will come. But here’s what I’ve learned: I’ve found peace in releasing my need to control. My life—and my heart—are mine again.
I no longer clutch my dreams with clenched fists. Instead, I hold them open, giving them to God, trusting He knows better than I do. And even though the future is uncertain, I’m experiencing a new kind of freedom I never thought possible.
I can’t control how or when my dream will unfold, but I’ve learned that peace comes when I trust God with the details.
So, my friend, I ask you now: What do you need to surrender?
And I’m not talking about giving up on your dreams. Surrender isn’t about quitting; it’s about releasing control and trusting that God’s plan for you is far greater than anything you could orchestrate.
I know it’s not easy. It takes courage. It takes faith. It means saying yes to God’s tough questions: Will you trust Me with this? Will you surrender your idea of “best” for My best? Will you let go of your perfect timing for My perfect timing?
But here’s the beautiful part: When you let go, you’re no longer bound by the need to control. You’ll find a peace that surpasses understanding, even amid the uncertainty. The freedom in surrender is like nothing else.
So, as you sit on that rollercoaster, staring at the unknown, remember: you’re not alone. Trust that God has you. He is faithful and with you every step of the way.
“O LORD, I give my life to you.” Psalm 25:1 (NLT)
