I wake up, take a subtle glance at the clock and quickly realize one thing, I am late. It is then followed by an ungraceful stumble out of bed while also accompanied by a frantic vibe that is automatically reinforced by the mumbling of the words“oh crap! I’m late!” I hate being late. And maybe you too?
It throws off plans, makes me rework my lists, and causes my type A personality to show itself in an ugly manner. Needless to say, it is a melancholy’s worst nightmare! And for the last several months, my body has decided it loves the word late, and not the fashionably “cutsie” kind of late; but the kind where I basically have one menstrual cycle in the time frame an average person has two…even three.
This is not “normal” and there are days when I don’t even pray and ask God for a baby that month, rather just a “normal” cycle. I can’t remember ever having one, but they exist. I have read about them online. And just a couple of weeks ago, I overheard my friend talking to another friend about how she planned both of her children’s birthdays to be in the summer. I can’t even fathom that. I walked away from our conversation thinking she either had magic powers, which I obviously did not have, or she has a “normal” cycle. I’m going to go with the latter.
But what is normal when it comes to your cycle length? Medical professionals will tell you that it is anywhere between 21 to 35 days with 28 being “average”. So as it seems, my cycles are anything but “normal” or “average”. Long cycles usually equate to no ovulation. And no ovulation equates to no egg. And no egg means no baby. Therefore, how am I supposed to get pregnant without a “normal” cycle?
Hope and faith…that’s how.
No, I’m serious. That’s not sarcasm. Don’t get me wrong, a normal cycle would be nice, but I’m not stressing about not having one. I won’t allow the facts of my situation change my mind regarding the Truth found in God’s word regarding healing. Or that He can do the impossible. Of course, the enemy of my soul and the thief of my dreams wants to try and convince me that it is hopeless. He wants me to have those thoughts in the back of my mind and tucked away in my heart that say, “Next cycle won’t be any different. In fact, it will probably continue to get longer. It isn’t ever going to change. You are the only one God isn’t doing anything for.” But I know that these are just lies spoken in order to cause me to let go and turn away from my faith. I know that God can reverse this ugly situation of long cycles, mixed with unbalanced hormones, combined with years of heartache, and turn it around for His glory. He has proven Himself time and time again in His word, and I have seen it happen for other people in my life. Think about it, how many stories have you heard of people who were struggling with something and then suddenly everything changed for the better? I believe God moves suddenly. And we need to wait, in expectation for a sudden move from Him.
Jesus looked at them and said, “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God all things are possible. Matt. 19:26
This is why I am going into my next cycle expecting that God is going to suddenly show up and change in an instant what has plagued me for years. But yet at the same time, I have a peace within my soul that if my cycles continue to be long, that’s okay too. I don’t have to have a “normal” cycle to get pregnant. My charting doesn’t have to have the perfect highs and lows. My hormones don’t even need to be balanced, because God is the God of impossibles. And my impossible circumstance is just more of an opportunity for His power and glory to shine. Sweet friend, He is going to show up…and He is going to show out…and He will be right on time.
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