Grieving the Life You Planned

Vulnerable Post Alert:  Grief hits you at weird moments, doesn’t it? For me, it happened this morning as I stood facing my bathroom mirror. I was mindlessly putting on my makeup and getting ready for the day when the thoughts of what I imagined my life would look like recklessly hit me like a Mack…

When It Seems Like You Are the Only One With Infertility

Sometimes it feels like you are the only one. The only one with this longing. This heartache. This inability and void. In fact, all it takes is walking down the aisles of the grocery store, looking around in your church congregation, or simply sitting down in a restaurant for dinner in order for it to…

What Is the Resolve To Infertility?

Today is the grand finale of the 5 Day Photo Challenge for National Infertility Awareness Week, and RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association has challenged those within the infertility community to post a picture on their social media accounts of what resolve looks like to them. After all, resolve looks different to everyone. For some, it…

When Infertility Feels Like a Prison Sentence

Every picture tells a story…here is mine… It’s Day 3 of the 5 Day Photo Challenge for National Infertility Awareness Week (#niaw). Day 1 was all about honoring our stories. Day 2 was about sharing our furbabies…because after all, for some of us, not all babies are in human form. And as for today, we…

When You Don’t See God Working

It was 6 am and warm tears slowly fell from my cheeks that still had the imprints from my comforter still on them. I had scribbled in my journal my thoughts, the ones I would be embarrassed if anyone stumbled upon and read. I wasn’t complaining, but just explaining to God that I can’t seem…

36 Years Old and Still Barren

I turn the big 3-6 today (a baby to some…old to others) And I can’t believe it. Never in my plans as a high school student, college student, or career woman in my middle 20’s did I imagine life would look like it does now. Is my life bad? No. But does it look anything…

Your Anxiety Is Showing—Better Tuck That Back In

  “Your anxiety is showing—better tuck that back in,” whispered the little voice inside my head. “After all, you don’t want anyone to know about the sadness you sometimes feel without cause, or the depression you must fight away.” Anxiety has a way of sneaking into your day, into your thoughts and into your routine.…