It’s odd.
This room.
The furniture.
Because the room itself doesn’t match where I am in my life, it only matches where I want to be and where my sweet dreams take me at night.
Not many even know this room exists. And to be honest? I like to keep it that way. Because, as I said, it’s odd.
Do you see the dresser/changing table to the left? Nearly a year ago, my friend decided to sell her son’s baby changing table/dresser on Facebook. I immediately fell in love with it and impulsively bought it before someone else commented and “snatched” it up. But immediately after staking my claim, I felt absolutely ridiculous when two of my other friends commented that if I changed my mind, they wanted to be next in line for it. These were two friends who had ultrasound pictures to show…heartbeats to hear…reasons actually to need it in a few short months. But for me? I didn’t. And so purchasing it? Well, it was odd.
And look over there in the corner. Do you see the recliner? My husband and I bought it nearly 10 months ago in preparation that we would not only need it but hopefully need it soon. As in by the end of the year soon. But friends, it’s now the end of the year, and I am nowhere close to needing it than I was 10 months ago when we bought it. And so to see it sitting in a room next to a dresser/changing table that I also had no business purchasing? Well, it’s odd.
But then again, so is that crib over to the right. Do you see it? It’s the one I purchased two years ago. The one my heart told my head I needed to buy because it was time to prepare. If you look closely, you will see that it has the most beautiful crib bedding, hand-sewn with faith and love by my talented mother already placed on the inside. It’s gorgeous, yet to see it sitting there, month after month, empty of tiny fingers and wiggly toes, it’s odd.
Everything about this room is odd.
But isn’t that what faith looks like?
Isn’t it odd?
Isn’t it odd to carry around plans and dreams in our hearts, have those conversations, and make those purchases that don’t seem completely congruent with where we are today? Yes. Yes, I believe it is. But you know? It’s okay because I was once told that faith in action is like a hand that reaches up and grabs hold of the blessings from God.
Therefore while this might look odd to you and honestly even me, I’m okay with it. I don’t mind being odd. I would rather be odd and reaching than normal and not.
“In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.” James 2:17
“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.” Hebrews 11:1
“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” Hebrews 11:6
To read more posts on this subject:
Faith in Action
When Having Faith is Hard
Risking my Reputation
Did God Really Say…?
Silly or Not…Here We Go!
Putting the Cart Before the Horse?
He Is a Champion
My Name Is…
Today Is Different
Two Years Ago Today
It’s Josiah Day
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Its beautiful. And i love your faith.
Ahh, thanks girl!
We have our nursery all done as well. There are days the room makes me sad but mostly I love walking by it daily. To have a physical room makes it feel like my dreams will one day come true. It makes everything seem more plausible and it gives my heart a place to rest. Thanks for sharing your beautiful room and your faith!
Your nursery – like your faith – is achingly beautiful. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Ahhh, thank you so much Leah! xo
Faith at its finest. We ‘faith painted’ our nursery as well before we were finally blessed. It made me hurt to look at some days, but mostly hopeful.
Very beautiful room. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much! xoxo
I love this. I admire your faith and your bravery. It is very brave to finish that room because you BELIEVE and you KNOW a beautiful baby will be asleep in that crib one day. Thank you for sharing your heart.
Ahhh, thank you so much sugars! It’s not totally finished yet. I need to find some things on the wall and maybe one day paint that end table. But at least all the big stuff is done 🙂
This is so beautifully written…may God hear your prayers friend! I believe in His due time He will bless you with your miracle!
Ahhh! Thank you so much, Ana! 😚
While waiting with my daughter for her rainbow baby, I’m reminded by a saying on my coffee cup coaster that says “Faith is not BELIEVING that God CAN….it is KNOWING that He WILL.” I’ve started a little journal that is based on Mark 11:24…..but it doesn’t make “the wait” any easier….Love, love, love the nursery, btw!
It is not odd at all! We did the same because we were financially in a place to be able to buy all of the nursery items. Then when a baby comes it will be less stress on you because its already done! You will be a mom one day! Sitting in our nursery always makes me have more hope for whats to come in the future 🙂
The room is gorgeous. Sending love.
Thank you so much!! ❤❤❤
Okay, now come do my daughter’s room. She’s 2 and it’s not yet done. Lol.
You have a bold and beautiful faith!
I love your room and your faith!!!
Ahh thanks sugars!!! It still needs a lot…like a rug and stuff on the walls. But little steps at a time…
Your faith is inspiring. You are inspiring. Even after 8+ years of infertile I can’t bring myself to buy a single baby item. May all of your prayers be answered. <3
When I see this room I think of the shunamite woman and how they for whatever reason although she was barren had an extra room in their home. ‘Maybe it was for the family she wanted to grow but had lost hope would come. But in her faithfulness God was faithful to her even in devastation God was faithful and restored her and that is my prayer and my hope for you that God is faithful. That he will fulfill and sustain his promise to you! Thank you again for allowing God to use you in this season!
Just wanted to stop by and send some love! ♡♡♡
Awe! Thank you so much! ❤❤
Thank you for sharing and the way you put ur faith i didn’t think about expressing my faith that way.May u be blessed my friend.
Thank you so much for reading and commenting! Don’t ever hesitate to take that leap of faith 😉
I love this. Our stories are similar in that we, too, created a nursery, which we felt led by the Lord to do even though my husband is still recovering from two major surgeries this year and is not quite back to full-time at work. If there ever was a time where it would make sense to NOT move ahead with planning for a baby, it’s now. Yet, we felt God leading. Some days I really struggle with wondering if we “heard” God correctly. Other days it’s easier to have faith without seeing. It’s a journey that does not feel familiar to me and I naturally want more control, but hindsight and what I know about God’s character keep telling me I can trust him. It’s going to be so interesting to see how God unfolds the story in both of our lives.
Thank you so much for sharing a piece of your story and faith with me! I am praying for you and your hubby right now ❤❤