If you have not read “Shirt Packed and Big Girl Panties On,” I suggest it first.
This morning I woke up, and my stomach was in knots. Today was the day in which I would track down the “mystery woman” and ask her to pray for me all because of a man named “Bob.” I Yi, Yi! While showering, I began imagining how tragic this conversation would be…
Me: Hi! (Que sweating and stuttering) You don’t know me and I don’t know you BUT a man named “Bob” stopped me outside of Wal-Mart on Friday and informed me that the Holy Spirit wants you to pray for me. (BIG cheestastic smile)
(Insert awkward silence)
Mystery woman: Okay…ummm…why?
Me: Why? Because the Holy Spirit said you needed to. (Another BIG cheesetastic smile)
Mystery woman: No, what I mean is, why do I need to pray for you…?
Me: Oh! I need you to pray for me because I am struggling to conceive and I heard you once also struggled…? So can you pray for me and my stubborn ovaries?
Mystery woman: (gives blank stare)
Me: (looks around as everyone else stares, start sweating more, knees begin to buckle, and my smile disappearing)
While putting on my makeup, I began to get nervous and sweat, just thinking about how silly I would look and how awkward this was going to be. But, I was more scared and nervous about what would happen if I chickened out and didn’t obey the voice of God. So, with my big girl panties pulled up to my chin, along with an extra shirt in hand, and a double dose of my husband’s deodorant, I was out the door and on my way to do one of the boldest things I have ever done…randomly ask a stranger to pray for my stubborn ovaries and empty uterus…
You see, on Saturday, I learned through a friend “the mystery” woman’s name, as well as what she looked like, and that she was scheduled to be a door greeter at our church. Thinking it would be easy-peasy-lemon-squeezy to locate her, I was wrong. Because when I arrived for worship, all psyched up, I couldn’t find anyone that met the description of a tall, dark-haired, younger woman. All I could find were older women with shorter, much greyer lighter-colored hair. UGH! But I’m not giving up. I’m not going to let this be an excuse for why I shouldn’t continue my pursuit. I believe that God will use this extra time to prepare her heart, and I trust that when I confidently do walk up to her, the Holy Spirit will have already prepared her for the “tap, tap” that I will give her on the shoulder.
Sweet friend, I am ready for round two! I have my big girl panties washed, dried, and ready to be put back on next Sunday.
To be continued…
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Good job looking and asking for information! This is a great first step! Hope you find her next week. 🙂
I will fo’sho find her next week! I need this over with before I change my mind. tehehe
Was thinking about you all morning… Just put them back on next Sunday ;)!
Thank you so much for thinking of me Justine! You are so sweet!
I was thinking when I read your last post it probably wasn’t easy for ‘Bob’ to go out on a limb to talk to you either. 🙂 So I’m really glad you’re giving it a shot, even though it seems strange!
God is amazing. I love reading about how He’s working in your life.
Thanks girl! Yes! I am sure Bob must have been sweating too! hehe! I can’t wait to find her next Sunday!
I was struck by the thought— or the holy spirit… why wait for a week…call her, email…prayers dont have to be in person. ( I pray for you here in champaign, I’ll)…. just saying pray about it. 🙂
I tried to find her on facebook but couldn’t and I want to talk to her in person. I hate phone calls…I need to see body language, etc.
I prayed for you and thought about you in church today and so ironically the topic during today’s message was the Holy Spirit and how he works in us and those around us. The pastor shared Micah 6:8 and sharing how God wants us to love justly, love mercy and walk humbly. Your story and experience seems to be singing to me in this verse to me and the granny panties had me cracking up- laughed so loud my husband wondered what on earth? Then I shared how you, (someone I’ve never met) have had such an impact on my life and on the lowest days of my life during the “journey” your humor and honesty has been such a blessing. Fingers crossed for you this week!
awe girl you are so amazingly sweet! I’m glad that God is using my crappy situation for your good and His glory! The devil is trying to ruin me through his evil schemes of infertility and PCOS but God is redeeming every step of the way. He is doing the same for you! xo He will never leave us in this state. He loves us too much! We must hold on to our hope and never lose our faith that even though things look crappy now, they won’t in the end. He isn’t finished with our stories just yet 🙂
There has to be a reason you and I and so many couples have to suffer with infertility- and loss- the journey is long and hard but finding moments at least makes that moment a little easier. We have to keep the faith that God has a plan ❤️
Amen!
Oh, no!! So sorry you didn’t connect today…but you will. I just know it. 🙂 God may even let it happen at a time other than in church, ya’ know? He is not limited. He is not boxed in to this having to happen on a particular day of the week in a particular setting. He might just choose to do something totally unexpected. He is great like that. Will be waiting anxiously to hear of how it all unfolds. 🙂
Thanks Cheryl! I’m just believing that this extra time will be used to also prepare her heart as well 🙂
Such an interesting thing to happen. I really hope you find her. This could be the piece of the puzzle you need! Good luck!
Thanks girl! Something within me tells me that this is God testing me…to see if I will just simply obey no matter how crazy, foolish or awk\ward it is.
Hopefully by proving your loyalty and love he will reward you with a BFP:)
What do you have to loose?
right?! That’s what I keep telling myself. I’m looking forward to Sunday 🙂
No!!! I need to know how this goes!! Well, that will just give us extra time to be praying for this divine interaction. I’ll be waiting patiently to hear!
Maybe god is waiting just until you’re really ready, increasing your faith that this big awkward step will be rewarded. Increase your expectation friend, because god is all powerful. Maybe this lady has been waiting for you for a long time xx
Good you got information. I wouldn’t worry about blank and embarrassing looks. If she’s gone through infertility she’ll surely feel for you in no time. Looking forward to hearing how it goes next week. Good luck! xx
Just got caught up! I think my hands were sweating reading your last entry! Can’t wait to hear the follow up to this! I know it’s going to be amazing! You are so loved, Butternut!:-)
I’m proud of you for being obedient. That’s the first step. That picture cracks me up! Love u, girlie! XO
Augh! It feels like a million years until next Sunday!
Can’t wait to read the update lol you had me literally laughing out loud when you said you pulled your big girl panties up to your chin 😂😂😂 day made thank you lolol
Can’t wait to hear how this story continues 🙂
Thanks girl!! Xo
It really seems like this is meant to happen so I’m sure you’ll find her next week! Good luck hon <3
Oh yes I will find her 😉
You are too funny/cute with your references to your big girl panties and your husband’s deodorant. Looking forward to hearing how it all goes 🙂
Unfortunately the hubby’s deodorant was for real
That is so darn awesome. I can’t wait to hear how it goes when you can finally get into contact with her. You’ve already taken some big steps and now you are more prepared. Good luck next week!!! 🙂
Thanks girlie!! I am pumped up now and hopefully I stay this way. Lol
Was thinking of and praying for you on Sunday. I’m so happy you found out what she looks like! No excuses now 🙂 Haha!
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers! Keep them coming 🙂
Sometimes the preparation can be harder than the event itself… 🙂
I was wondering if you ever found her. I’d feel the same way as you! Be brave…maybe she loves to share her story with others. My mom always says there is power in being prayed for by someone who received the kind of healing that you need. Hopefully you’ll find her next week, or maybe you could get her name and number and contact her outside of church?
I was wondering if you ever found her. I’d feel the same way as you! Be brave…maybe she loves to share her story with others. My mom always says there is power in being prayed for by someone who received the kind of healing that you need. Hopefully you’ll find her next week, or maybe you could get her name and number and contact her outside of church?
Thanks is much for your encouraging words!! I plan on getting to church early and hunting her down. Hehe
I will be thinking of you on Sunday and can’t wait to hear how all goes. Much love dollface xxx
Thanks sugars!!! I’m ready to get this over with and see what all God has in store and what will come from all of this crazyness! lol
This anticipation is killing me, Elisha!
LOL!